You know how when you're reading your Bible, and a word just jumps out at you. My word was "complacency". "the complacency of fools will destroy them" (Proverbs 1) In my struggle to live a health-filled life, I was getting so discouraged at my day after day failure. I kept trying to figure out why I couldn't make this lifestyle change. Then, this word "shouts' out at me. I looked it up for the exact meaning - "self-satisfaction, unawareness of dangers". There was my reason. I was walking in complacency in just about every area of my life. Indulging in my wants and not taking seriously the dangers of not taking care of myself, spiritually and physically. The opposite of complacency is "humbleness, humility, modesty. Interesting, It made sense to me. I was living a life of "self-satisfaction". Complacent about the dangers of not taking care of myself, body, soul and spirit.
Someone said, "Always first draw fresh breaths
after outbursts of vanity and complacency".
Time to humbly take a deep fresh breath and start over.